My thatha

This snap is the only item apart from my educational certificates I brought from my home in B’lore as a newly wed here .THE ONLY ONE .

What can I say when I feel like a plant which has lost its roots and now is just dead.My thatha passed away .My ammachi passed a few years back .Then I felt like I should stop living even tho’ I had then 2 yr old .My grandparents were the the ost wonderful things to happen to me .they were my identity , my address my entire existence I defined by them ..I was so & so’s grandaughter .At some point it did become my daughters mom but what I liked best was this the one being their grandchild.

My mom gives me plenty of reason for eaving me with my grandparents when I was just 2 weeks old and being with my dad .My grandparents brought me up , like a princess a middle class princess …they even bought a cow for me because I had to drink milk from the same cow ..mind you thats the first &last cow they owned .My grandma a teacher & granpa a goverment officer .

A princess because they showered me with the love the most precious commodity in the entire world.The first question I would ask as a child when my thatha used to visit me in b’lore as soon as he stepped inside the home (I must have been 6-7)was thatha when will you be leaving .
Apparently this hurt him a lot and after many years he asked me why I was asking him this ,I told him then it was becuase the thought of him going away after his mini vacay was so devastating for I had to prepare myself in advance.He laughed relieved

Once I mentioned to him that I liked young world a supplement in The Hindu newspaper and guess what every few mos I would get a courier with all the young world supplements!!!At my home we used to buy Indian express and it never even occured to me to get The Hindu newspaper on sundays

He loved us so much I often wondered did thatha love his grandkids more or did ammachi ?Every term vacation every xmas every summer was spent there .I knew I was lucky even then to have them both .It used to bug my affectionate dad everytime my thatha used to come because the love I used to shower on him was nothing like the way showed my dad .My grandpa+ grandma was/is my all.

Now what am I supposed to do , it feels like doomsday has finally arrived but I still have to help my daughter with her homework …I feel like its finally over the best generation of all is finally being wiped off .I feel dead inside , I dont think I can ecover excep maybe live thru’ life can never ever be completely happy yes I will always be sad any happy emotion tinged with sadness .
Good bye thatha & ammachi ,to say that I will miss you would be like saying its….I dont what to say can’t think of any comparison.

Now you are both together


such a sweet song

Bruno’s eyes are so beautiful

Bit o news

I have always felt there was a connection b/w the kidney n BP ,just like there is a realtion b/w liver n diabetes  (just a layperson’s educated guess), yeah i know it starts with the insulin resistance ,DNA etetc ..

This is a bit of good news…

Palmers Olive Oil Formula Hair & Scalp Conditioner Spray

I am obsessed with applying oil  for kanmani’s hair , I mean I take a drop of oil partion her hair and apply inch by inch using my finger tips .Originally I used (4m time I was able to apply oil on her hair ,since she was born)

I used this one religiously ,every single day until this year she used to get about a 45 mins of massage which included head ,body ,back ,feet  and face .I learnt it from internet .Even if I missed a single day I wud feel guilty so  I never missed  and frankly it used to be a stress buster for me too  🙂

Last time I went to a dept store , I was on the look out for a diff oil ,simply because I wanted a change from using the same oil and also because they changed the apricort to lemon and I hate the smell of lemon oil on her head

I came across this oil

Imagine my happiness when I saw it came with a spray  🙂 ,i need not part her hair to apply  oil , takes much less time and its olive oil ,good for the hair .

Perhaps I shd resume my  body massage routine too ,but I dunno , maybe I will…BTW that something(that I had blogged about 1 post back ) turned out to be nothing guys  😦   

Disappointed but ..well once I listen to music and go on a recovery mode for a

couple of  days, all will be well 🙂

Okay ,coming back to this oil , usually i do a ton of research b4 buying but this was an impulse purchase  ,so I dunno if there are harmful chemicals  and I dont want to look because it works so well .Wonderful smell , lightweight  and conditions her frizzy hair real well.Kanmani always has oil on her hair , I oil it everyday(or when it looks dry ) and thats how she goes to school, sometimes I wonder if her teachers may not like it ,but frankly I dont care  🙂

Hair needs oil .Atleast my daughters .

I want her to have really healthy ,lustrous shiny hair when she grows ,soon egg whites will make an appearance on her hair 😉  u know for conditioning

If u happen to know ,just let me know, thank you 🙂

Mike n Molly

Made me smile after a long day of frowns.
I have to admit I hv always have hade an extra-soft corner for weight challenged persons..simply because my original apple of my eye ,my cousin sis was fat.
She has struggled with her weight right from the time she was 6-8 yrs old,her mom my mom’s younger sis was the best mom anyone cud hope for .But this weight bothered her and she used to be harsh on her hoping that the harshness wud u know force her to eat sensibly.
It only made her more stressful and eat more .and I loved her with all my heart .Her #1 reason for weight was her eating habits , nobody else was heavy in our entire family her dad’s side included .
She had no underlying health conditions which cud hv contributed to her weight .She just ate ..anything she cud get her hands on .

She was/is brilliant ,a rank holder every time (made me proud as a peacock ) still this weight never really melted off of her .So seeing her struggle like that made me warm up instantly towards anyone who was heavier ,and really they are the funniest persons warmest persons on earth .

This sitcom embodies everything about weight challenged persons…its warm sweet n incredibly funny .We can watch without wrinkling our nose in disgust like some other series where they try to pass offense as humor

Note: I am not talking abt us who r just trying to lose w few pounds ,no I am talking about anyone who struggles to lose weight every single day of their life from their childhood ,unable to wear clothes they want to wear (in my cuzn case she longed to wear jeans n look chic ).
Recently she told me tho’ akka everyone is fat(India ) now ,so I fit in with the crowd.
As a child she never fit in because kids are generally thin/slim


something which I cannot describe is happening ,initially I did not notice it .But then when it happens in your face kind of , of course I had to sit up and take notice.
Its puzzling
Thankfully I have the trip coming up so I am happy about it ,atleast it will take my mind off it.

Meanwhile knitting wise ,I hv decided to take a break ,yeah instead I hv been clearing up the home and steam cleaning the carpets ….and I have bundled up the yarn and stored it safely in the storage box , plus I do have packing to do.Dh helped me tidy the home so it was a lot easier for me.Weekend we just stayed in because dh had work to do the whole day and sunday well we cleaned the home …top to bottom .

Meanwhile I think I may hv to buy some new tops for me ,I had just recently bought a couple of tops that too a bit on the loose side because u know I thot my graph wud only rise in wt dept ..but now I am kind of floating just after losing 4 lbs !
okaaay 3-4 lbs 😉 get it

I dread this shopping again ..clothes shopping …putting on /off trying new sizes ..its just too damn boring n tiring jeans also is hanging off my hips like its going to fall off if my belt ever gives in 🙂 ..again I did buy the jeans loose fitting to compensate for future weight gains …yuck .one of the new tops just keeps slipping off my shoulders ..

see..only I the eternal pessimist, can find a downside in this too 🙂 ..
..yes coming back to this thing that is bothering me …I wanted it ,and I got it but now it seems like a downside to me……no no I was intially happy but then … ?its actually a minor issue …but U know me I love blowing things up and dwelling on it fact its my fav pastime apart from knitting of course 🙂

yeah …yeah I am a major drama queen…but really if there were no dramas in life , wud it be interesting ? 🙂

This one’s for the girls

Really , what’s not there to like in this song 🙂

I agree

Its true…this truly is the secret of happiness .

I hv tried meditation , tried short walks ..but being focussed …such a simple thing …is truly the secret

Dh -ism

Dh is totally out of touch with celebrity news.
So anyway today when we had gone out , since he was having the stroller I took the escalator and we met outside another shop.
When we met he said he went inside some shop named st john (link) and the salesperson a guy didn’t know greet him or say Hi(which is the norm here) etcetc.. and he found the prices exorbitant .So he said I am sure the guy knew I wudn’t buy the clothes there .

So i told him that Angeline jolie used to be the model /spokesperson for that brand.

So he says ” Then I wont pay for her nanny/nannies ”

Get it ? 😆

one hit wonder

So today morning I was telling Dh(he’ s not sure abt my knittting skills ,he’s fine as long as I hv a hobby and dont bother him )  about the  nice comments wonderful persons left  on the cardi .He was so happy , then he says tongue in cheek

So now,  you have become the one hit wonder “